Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Hello all, I felt the need to say something since it is the new year.

At this point last year I never thought that I would be anywhere near as happy as I am. Let me start off my saying that I am one of the luckiest girls on the entire planet, I have the greatest boyfriend ever. Now I know that ever girl says this about their new guy, but it`s true. He really is the sweetest, most perfect guy I have ever met in my life. For those of you who don`t know him personally or even know about him his name is Bryan. I met him after complaining to my best friend all summer about how I "needed" a boyfriend. Well he came through on his promised birthday present of a "boyfriend". It was a blind date, well sort of. He knew stuff about me and had seen pictures of me, but all I knew about him was his first name and that he worked with my friend. Upon meeting him I didn`t think that he had any feelings for me, but was later proven wrong when we talked until late into the night. Now here I sit a month and a half later completely in love with the boy.

He really is the sweetest guy ever. Now those of you who know me know that I am not at all girlie, well this boy makes me smile and giggle like a little girl. He is always either holding my hand or holding me, he loves to tell me that he loves, all the time, and he tells others that he loves me. He opens doors for me, he kisses me hand, overall he is the perfect guy.

Please girls tell me you wouldn`t love him, I dare you to.

He is the love of my life and I owe so much to my best friend Ryan. Thank you best friend I owe you my life, and you will be the best man in the wedding.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Things you might not know.

1. The Pittsburgh Penguins are my life, and I reccently found out that I have a fear of being without them.

2. I had been single for almost two years, that is until a little less than a month ago. And now thanks to my best friend I have the greatest boyfriend in the world.

3. As much as I can`t stand them I don`t know what I would do without my family, and I can`t wait until my dad comes home.

4. I may be short and skinny but I`m tough, so don`t mess with me.

5. I`m pretty easy to get along with and will talk to just about anyone, but if we have different beliefs it may be a little harder for us to be friends.

6. Singing used to be something that I loved to do, now not so much. You`ll only catch me singing when I`m in school, at band practice, or just having fun with my friends.

7. Sleep and food, two of the best things in the world.

8. I try to get good grades in school, but this year is a little harder than others.

9. The USAF is what I plan to do with the four years of my life after high school. I want to be an Air Force Fire Fighter. (Like my dad).

10. Robert Morris University is the college for me, hopefully after the Air Force I get accepted there.

11. Writing is something I love to do whether it be my "book" or reviews of Pens games. However I can not stand writing papers for school.

12. I believe that looks aren`t everything, and that`s probably why I wear jeans, a hoodie, and a hat everyday. If you can`t get past what I wear than you`re probably not someone that I want to "hang" with anyway. It`s personality, what`s inside that matters.

13. My friends are what get my through the day, without them I don`t know what I would do.

14. House is now and addiction. I love Dr. Chase.

15. I believe in second chances, first impressions aren`t always the best things to judge people by.

16. Celtic music is love; Pogey, Gaelic Storm, Glengarry Bhoys, Floggy Molly, Seven Nations, etc.

17. Yes, tough girl can cry. And it`s normally when it comes to something dramatic happening with the Penguins (a trade or serious injury) but it can also happen during random parts of movies.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Anyone watch House? (Dr. Chase)

I reccently became obsessed with House and it is basically the only thing I watch other the Penguins' games. I am also very taken by Dr. Chase, and this is a little something I thought up about Dr. Chase and I. (Totally fictional, even though I wish that it would happen. Feel free to comment.

So you know how my back really hurt today? Well it`s because things got a little rough with Chase last night. It had been a long day as always, House had us running everywhere. I was wearing a black pin stripe suit with a dark blue cami. I walked into the locker room to find a bouquet of yellow and white roses above my locker. The smell filled the room but I brought them down to my nose anyway and a smile came to my face as I knew that someone else had entered the room. I turned around to see Chase wearing a red shirt with a red and black striped tie. “I thought you would like them.”

“They`re beautiful.”

“As are you,” he said with a smile. Without even a thought I started towards him and before I knew it his arms were around my waist holding me just inches from him. “You are truly beautiful,” the sexy Australian accent sent shivers down my spine, as did the kiss he then placed on my lips. He pushed me up against the locker without breaking the kiss and I ran my fingers through his thick blonde hair.

“Chase,” I said pulling away; my fingers still clung to his soft hair.

“I know this isn`t very romantic, kissing in the locker room. I`m sorry,” and with that a smile spread across his lips as he took my hand and led me out to the hallway. We were practically running and soon we made it to House’s office. “I`m glad he went home,” he said with a sly smile. “I love you.”

“Mmm,” was all I could get out as his lips were back on mine. My hands which were clasped behind his neck slid down to his chest and started to loosen his tie. “Silk?” He nodded and again his lips were back on mine, and this time it wasn`t a soft kiss, it was rough and hungry; but still passionate. His tie was now loose enough that I slipped it over his head and quickly reconnected our lips. He backed me up against the window as I started to unbutton his soft, dark red shirt. With the last button undone I caught a glimpse of his well toned body and ran my hand up and down his chest and stomach as he slid his arms out of the sleeves. It was still on his shoulders, but not for long as I wrapped my hands around his neck causing the shirt to fall to the floor. My jacket quickly followed and he ran his hands over my arms, which were now at his belt loops, pulling me closer. Inching my cami up he broke the kiss and quickly pulled it over my head. With a quick glance down a smile came to his face and I knew that things were going to speed up, and quickly. His hands went to unbutton and unzip my pants and they quickly went to the floor, he quickly looked me up and down as I undid the button and zipper on his black pants. They fell to the floor and I ran my hand along the waist band of his dark purple and gray boxers causing him to let out a deep moan. He ran his hands up my back from my waist causing a moan to escape my lips, but before I knew it his lips were on mine and my bra was on the floor. Within a matter of seconds my underwear, his boxers, and the two of us were on the floor. He was on top & I couldn`t help but scream his name.

“I love you Dr. Robert Chase,” I said and he placed a kiss on my cheek before lying down on the floor next to me.

“And I love you.”

“I`m glad I keep an extra set of clothes here,” I said when we were back in the locker room. He ran his hand along my cheek and kissed my lips. “Chase, House is going to be here any minute.”


We walked into the hallway to find House. “Morning House,” I said with a smile.

“You two are rather happy this morning,” he said walking away. All Chase and I could do was look at each other and smile.

Friday, September 26, 2008


I am so sick of everyone, mostly teachers, talking about college. Yes at some point I will go to college, but not right away.

I am joining the US Air Force & going active duty straight out of high school.

I really cannot stand people who scream things in the middle of the National Anthem. I don`t care if you`re not patriotic, but it`s so disrespectful. There are men & women out there risking their lives so you can be safe & free, & you can`t be silent for 90 seconds.

My dream is to go to Robert Morris University & major in Communications.

I would do anything to work for the Pittsburgh Penguins.

Friends are pretty much what keep me sane (or insane). Without them I don`t know what I would do.

I`m kind of close with my family, mostly my brother Chuck, my sister Sharon, & my dad.

I miss my dad, but I try not to show it too much. I don`t want people to get worried about me.

Irish music is pretty much the most amazing stuff out there. Well really Celtic music in general. Gaelic Storm, Pogey, & The Glengarry Bhoys are some of my favorite bands.

The members of Pogey showed me that to enjoy music you have to have fun with it.

Bagpipes are my favorite instrument & I`m "learing" to play them.

I cannot stand my hair & the only feature I really like are my eyes.

Without my best friend Ryan there is no way in hell I would have made it through this summer.

The Twilight series are four of the best books I`ve ever read in my life.

I sing, but I really don`t like to anymore unless it`s for band.

People who can`t be quiet during moments of silence really piss me off. (Playoffs 08 for Luc Bourdon)

I have the most amazing, sweetest boyfriend ever! (Thank you Ryan!!!)

I love hockey players & bagpipers, I can`t help it.

I have a massive crush on Mark Eaton & Brooks Orpik.

The Mellon Arena is my home away from home & I`ll miss it so much when it`s gone.

The Pittsburgh Penguins are my OBSESSION & I love them more is probably healthy.

That`s probably more than you wanted to know, but when I get inspired I write.

That`s it, byes!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Jacob Black?

Since I made a list for Edward I figured I should make one for Jacob too. So this is how I see Jacob, in terms of features I took from various Pittsburgh Penguins.

Hal Gill's height
Jordan Staal's smile
Max Talbot & Kris Letang's hair
Sidney Crosby's body
Marc-Andre Fleury's caring heart
Evgeni Malkin's eyes
Colby Armstrong's lips.

I know that it`s not much, but they don't really give a good discription of any of his other features. So this is what I took from my reading so far & this is how I picture Jacob. Not the way that the damn person who did the casting for the movie see him. I really don't agree with any of the people they casted. I have to say that I really don`t think that there is anyone in the world sexy enough to play Jacob or Edward.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Hmm Edward Cullen...

So this is for all you Twilight & Pittsburgh Penguins' fans.
This is what we think Edward Cullen looks like, well when thinking of current & former Guins players.

Sidney Crosby`s eyes
Kris Letang`s nose
Evgeni Malkin`s bottom lip
Colby Armstrong`s sense of humor
Colby Armstrong`s crooked smile
Marc-Andre Fleury`s laugh
Max Talbot`s devious mind
Jordan Staal`s body
Tyler Kennedy`s freaking adorableness
Ryan Malone`s car

Pretty Damn sexy if you think about it!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Could Things Get a Little Worse?

He knows, some how Ryan knows that I like him. I`m not supposed to know this, but I do. I`m not exactly sure why, but it really hurts me to know this. I was a dumb ass & asked him a question then to cover up I said that it was Michelle. He told her that he knows & I've just been sitting here thinking about it. And I've almost been in tears since  10:21, that`s when he asked her if she could keep a secret. I know I`m not supposed to know, but the expressions she made while she was talking to him just let me know. I just wish that someone would like me, as more than a friend. Well I don` even know if anyone reads this, but I really just needed to get this out.  

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder why I can never get a boyfriend.
I always end up falling for someone who is either taken or just wants to be friends.
Last night I hung out with one of my friends who I had not seen in a long time.
I used to be in love with him & somehow it faded into just liking him.
After spending time with him the feelings resurfaced & I find myself in love again.
We talked together, we danced together, we smiled together.
He held me as we danced for most of the night & I felt safe.
He looked into my eyes, & I in his & I couldn`t help but smile.
Upon leaving he gave me multiple hugs & held me for longer than just a friend would.
Here I am today thinking about him happily
That is until I find out that he like the rest has no desire of being more than friends.
He, Scotty has a girlfriend.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I need to stop

This is part of a convo me & my friend were having...

mrsjordanstaal11 (10:31:06 PM): don`t laugh at this, but seriously the only reason I have a smile on my face at work is because of you
shadowff302 (10:31:17 PM): aw haha thanks
shadowff302 (10:31:22 PM): im not that great
mrsjordanstaal11 (10:31:31 PM): yes you are
shadowff302 (10:31:44 PM): no im not why am i
mrsjordanstaal11 (10:32:33 PM): because you`re ryan...I don`t know you just walk make me smile. you always know what to say to make me happy.
shadowff302 (10:32:52 PM): haha aw thanks
shadowff302 (10:32:55 PM): i try

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Welcome Home Jordan...

So even though I hate first person I wrote this in first person because I was talking to my friend & this was off the top of my head. It made me used at some point in my Jordan story.

Intro- Jordan had been in Canada visiting family for a week without me.

I was just about to fall alseep too, when he walked in the door. Well lets just say I wasn`t tired anymore. He sat down on the bed & kissed my cheek, because he thought that was I asleep.
"You want your welcome home party tonight or tomorrow?"
He sat there looking confused & I crawled over & straddeled his hips. I kissed him & ran my fingers through his hair then down his back.
Once I got to the bottom of his shirt I broke the kiss just long enough to slide it over his head. Even before it hit the floor he had placed his lips back on mine & had gotten the idea. He ran his hand along my back & slowly slid my shirt up, inch by inch not wanting to take his lips from mine. Finally when all of my stomach was exposed he pulled away but just as quickly as last time his lips were back on mine. I got up from his lap, but still only inches seperated us. I ran my hand along his chest & stomach. Once I made it to his jeans, I quickly undid the button & zipper & a huge smile came to his face. My shorts landed somewhere on the other side of the room, but neither of us cared where the landed. I pushed him so that he laying on the bed & I on top of him. We rolled over so that we was on top & the blue & white flowered bra hung from the bedside lamp. I hadn`t noticed until this point that he was wearing my favorite pair of blue & white plaid boxers & I couldn`t help but smile. But those & my blue bikini underwear made it to the floor. Much later I lay in his arms & he placed a gentle kiss on my cheek before saying, "Baby I love you so much."
"I love you too Jordan, welcome home."

Please tell me what you think, remember that it was off the top of my head when I was talking to my friend. And let me know if it should be put into my Jordan story at some point.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

No Matter What Others May Say...I Love You

When the big trade took place in Feburary the Guins lost two key players. But most fans only aknowledged the absense of team captain`s best friend Colby Armstrong. But someone else was also lost on the day, someone valuable, someone I love more than the ordinary hockey fan could ever imagine; Erik Christensen. Crush was a small guy; in respect to weight, but he knew how to throw his weight around earning him the nickname Crusher. Being the main shootout man he made a huge impact not only on the team but also on the fan base. However this seemed to be forgotten when he pulled a jersey of another color over his head. I miss Crush equally as much as I miss Colby & the song I wrote was also for him. Unlike with Colby I have not been lucky enough to be graced by Erik`s presence, but someday I hope to be able to say that I have. Erik will always be a Penguin in my heart & someday I hope that I will be able to call his name as he steps onto Mellon Arena ice; a Penguin once more.

Monday, July 7, 2008

The Big Time [A Jordan Staal One Shot]

Jamie was a Penguins fan who was supposed to be attending Robert Morris University. At least that was her plan to go to RMU and become a hockey announcer; she already had a back up job writing sports reviews for a local newspaper. However the summer before she started college she was asked to write a book about one of the Penguins. "So who am I writing about?" she asked.

"Jordan Staal."

"Okay." She said before hanging up. 'Staal's cool but I would rather write about Sid or Marc-Andre, they're so cute.' She thought.


"Hi Mr. Staal I`m Jamie Peters," She said shaking his hand.

"Nice to meet you and please call me Jordan, we're going be spending the next year together." It was the first day of training camp for the 2007-2008 season, Jordan`s second year in the league. All the guys were out on the ice practicing and doing drills while Jamie sat on the bench with her notepad thinking of questions to ask Jordan about his hockey career and his family. 'So whats it like to play in the NHL? No that`s what everyone asks and I`m not everyone,' she thought to herself.


"So hows the book coming along?" Jamie's best friend Katie asked.

"Pretty good its fun being with the team all the time and I think I may be starting to like Jordan."


"Well I mean I've liked him as a player since he was drafted but the longer he`s on the team and the more time I spend with him the cuter he gets."

"Aww someone has a crush-" Just then there was a knock on Jamie's hotel room door.

"I gotta go someones at the door," she hung up her phone. "One minute." She opened the door to see a tall man with blonde hair and blue eyes. "Hey Jordan I totally forgot we were meeting for an interview."

"Its cool, you ready?"

"Yeah, just let me get my notepad." She got up from the bed to walk over to the dresser to pick up her notebook. She looked up at Jordan`s reflection in the mirror, before walking over to him she tried to hide her smile. "So out of your brothers who do you think is the most aggressive?"

"Probably Eric, he`ll do anything to win-"


The season continued to go by with wins and the occasional loss. Times got hard first when Fleury went down in Calgary and even harder when Sid went down in a home game against Tampa. "So Jay how are all these injuries affecting not only the team but you in general?"

"Well they`re making it so guys are getting more ice time and it puts us all in a position where we have to work harder than we would if they were in the line-up. So for me I`m just trying to play my 'A' game to help the team through this."


Jamie was sitting on the bench working on her notes at practice one day, Jordan was standing along the far boards looking off in Jamie's direction. "Hey Gronk what ya doing?" Army asked bringing him back to Earth.

"Nothing," He said putting his mouth guard back into his mouth.

"Right that`s why you`re staring at the girl who's writing a book about you."

"I wasn`t staring," he said weakly.

"Someone has a crush," Colby said in a sing-song voice. "Tell her you like her."

"No man it could ruin everything. We`re pretty good friends and she`s writing a book about me. There`s no way a girl like that could like a guy like me."

"Hey man you never know until you try."


During games nothing else could get her attention, but when it wasn`t game time it took a lot to pry Jamie away from her notes and the rough draft of her book. "Hey Jamie hows the book coming?" Jordan asked sitting down next to her at his stall.

"Pretty good, what`s up with you?" she asked looking up from her notes. He didn`t give her a spoken answer, he ran his finger along her cheek so that she was facing him and he kissed her.

She kissed back then quickly pulled away, "Jordan what the hell?" she asked with a smile on her face.

"Jamie I love you."

"I love you too Jordan," She said then her lips found their way to his.

Colby walked in to the locker room, "Hey Jor..." he stopped in his tracks. "I guess you told her," he said with a laugh then turned around to walk back to the runway. "Oh yeah he told me," Jamie said briefly pulling away from the kiss to laugh. "He told me."


"You wanna go get a drink?" chuck asked after walking down from the players parking lot.
"Sure why not." after saying bye to Anthony & Jesse they headed down to 7 11 where they both got Sidney Crosby BIg Gulps. "We should probably stop at the Mariott before the game starts." They walked around 7 11 for a while before Miriya said," Ok no we`re going to the Mariott."Crossing the street while talking to Michelle, Miriya spotted a farmilar face. "Oh my God," she said falling.
"Who is that?"
"It`s Colby Armstrong!" She could have sworn that he looked over at here.
"Are you serious, go over, have him talk to me on the phone."
"Michelle I don`t think I can do it," she said from the bathroom.
Once they walked out of the Mariott they went & sat on the ledge. Even though it was a little awkward she admired the back of Colby`s head.
"Let`s go over there," she said pointing to the other side of the stage.
They stood & listened to him talk for about half an hour as people came, got there pictures, & left. Michelle called again & said that she was on her way.
"Where is she?"
"I don`t care, I`m looking at Colby."
Michelle finally showed up with sharpies & camera in hand & turned red as she saw Army. He finished talking to the TV people, came down the steps, & walked over to them.
"Hey guys."
"Colby you rock my world," Michelle said.
This made him blush, they told him about how they had written songs about him & it made him smile.
"People look at me weird when I wear this shirt," she said turning around to show the ARMSTRONG on the back.
"Nice," he said smiling.
He signed Michelle`s shirt & she totally freaked out. They got a picture & he gave her a hug. "Colby could you sign my shirt? I know it`s a Sid shirt but..."
"It`s ok I can deal with that guy."
"Well he is your best friend." This made him giggle.
"Where do you want me to sign...anywhere?"
"Anywhere`s fine."
"I`m gonna need you to pull your shirt tighter."
She pulled down on her shirt & smiled as Colby signed on her chest. They got a picture & somehow her hand made it to his ass.
"Can I have a hug?"
He leaned down & put his arms around her, it was a damn good hug for someone as skinny as Army.
He went to sign Chuck`s jersey, "I`ll sign over here so Bugsy can sign in the middle."
They talked for a little while longer before the TV people told him that he needed to go.
"Can I give you something?"
"Sure as long as it`s not too big so I can carry it around all day."
Michelle ran over to her bag & grabbed the song she had written. Handing it him she was still shaking & he smiled.
"Thanks guys, I really apperciate this. I`d love to stay but I really gotta go."
"Bye Colby, thank you."

Conclusion-Colby Armstrong is one of the sweetest guys EVER!!! Meeting him was the best thing has ever happened to me. Chuck was wearing his Khaki school pants, his Shaqs & his Malone jersey. Michelle had on her brown Pumas, light blue jeans, & her Armstrong shirt. Miriya was wearing her black converse, Guins pants, a gray Crosby shirt, & her Crosby hat. Colby had on black dress shoes, dark blue jeans, a blue & white dress shirt & a light brown dress jacket. So sweet, so funny, & super sexy. Colby has made my life complete & I will remember that day forever. He will always be a Penguin in my heart & I love him.

If you wanna see pics let me know.

My Beloved Colby...How I Miss Thee

Colby Armstrong is the love of my life & I miss him more than the average hockey fan could ever imagine. When he was traded that solemn day in February I cried for only God knows how long & vowed never to forget him. It was deep into the Stanley Cup Playoffs when I read an article about the former Guin before heading off to school; reading this caused me to shed my emotions in the form of tears. Not knowing what else to do I took a pen & paper from my bag & wrote a song stating how I felt about my Army not being part of the Cup bound band of brothers. The very next day I was lucky enough to stumble upon my hockey hero & make some of the greatest memories of my short seventeen year life. It`s only been a month since I was stading inches from him, maybe even less; as he wrapped his arms around me in a hug. But still it seems like forever ago that I was with him & even longer ago that he was part of the Great Pittsburgh Penguins. I have to admit though, if he hadn`t been traded that fateful day to Atlanta I would have never met him. Never gotten to sing for him the song my best friend wrote & would have never gotten the chance to be friends with him. I hope that someday we`ll be lucky enough to be able to call him a Penguin again as he skates out onto Mellon Arena ice in a black & gold jersey, one more time.