Hmm

I am so sick of everyone, mostly teachers, talking about college. Yes at some point I will go to college, but not right away.

I am joining the US Air Force & going active duty straight out of high school.

I really cannot stand people who scream things in the middle of the National Anthem. I don`t care if you`re not patriotic, but it`s so disrespectful. There are men & women out there risking their lives so you can be safe & free, & you can`t be silent for 90 seconds.

My dream is to go to Robert Morris University & major in Communications.

I would do anything to work for the Pittsburgh Penguins.

Friends are pretty much what keep me sane (or insane). Without them I don`t know what I would do.

I`m kind of close with my family, mostly my brother Chuck, my sister Sharon, & my dad.

I miss my dad, but I try not to show it too much. I don`t want people to get worried about me.

Irish music is pretty much the most amazing stuff out there. Well really Celtic music in general. Gaelic Storm, Pogey, & The Glengarry Bhoys are some of my favorite bands.

The members of Pogey showed me that to enjoy music you have to have fun with it.

Bagpipes are my favorite instrument & I`m "learing" to play them.

I cannot stand my hair & the only feature I really like are my eyes.

Without my best friend Ryan there is no way in hell I would have made it through this summer.

The Twilight series are four of the best books I`ve ever read in my life.

I sing, but I really don`t like to anymore unless it`s for band.

People who can`t be quiet during moments of silence really piss me off. (Playoffs 08 for Luc Bourdon)

I have the most amazing, sweetest boyfriend ever! (Thank you Ryan!!!)

I love hockey players & bagpipers, I can`t help it.

I have a massive crush on Mark Eaton & Brooks Orpik.

The Mellon Arena is my home away from home & I`ll miss it so much when it`s gone.

The Pittsburgh Penguins are my OBSESSION & I love them more is probably healthy.

That`s probably more than you wanted to know, but when I get inspired I write.

That`s it, byes!
-Mir

Jacob Black?

Since I made a list for Edward I figured I should make one for Jacob too. So this is how I see Jacob, in terms of features I took from various Pittsburgh Penguins.

Hal Gill's height
Jordan Staal's smile
Max Talbot & Kris Letang's hair
Sidney Crosby's body
Marc-Andre Fleury's caring heart
Evgeni Malkin's eyes
Colby Armstrong's lips.

I know that it`s not much, but they don't really give a good discription of any of his other features. So this is what I took from my reading so far & this is how I picture Jacob. Not the way that the damn person who did the casting for the movie see him. I really don't agree with any of the people they casted. I have to say that I really don`t think that there is anyone in the world sexy enough to play Jacob or Edward.

Hmm Edward Cullen...

So this is for all you Twilight & Pittsburgh Penguins' fans.
This is what we think Edward Cullen looks like, well when thinking of current & former Guins players.

Sidney Crosby`s eyes
Kris Letang`s nose
Evgeni Malkin`s bottom lip
Colby Armstrong`s sense of humor
Colby Armstrong`s crooked smile
Marc-Andre Fleury`s laugh
Max Talbot`s devious mind
Jordan Staal`s body
Tyler Kennedy`s freaking adorableness
Ryan Malone`s car

Pretty Damn sexy if you think about it!

Could Things Get a Little Worse?

He knows, some how Ryan knows that I like him. I`m not supposed to know this, but I do. I`m not exactly sure why, but it really hurts me to know this. I was a dumb ass & asked him a question then to cover up I said that it was Michelle. He told her that he knows & I've just been sitting here thinking about it. And I've almost been in tears since  10:21, that`s when he asked her if she could keep a secret. I know I`m not supposed to know, but the expressions she made while she was talking to him just let me know. I just wish that someone would like me, as more than a friend. Well I don` even know if anyone reads this, but I really just needed to get this out.  

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder why I can never get a boyfriend.
I always end up falling for someone who is either taken or just wants to be friends.
Last night I hung out with one of my friends who I had not seen in a long time.
I used to be in love with him & somehow it faded into just liking him.
After spending time with him the feelings resurfaced & I find myself in love again.
We talked together, we danced together, we smiled together.
He held me as we danced for most of the night & I felt safe.
He looked into my eyes, & I in his & I couldn`t help but smile.
Upon leaving he gave me multiple hugs & held me for longer than just a friend would.
Here I am today thinking about him happily
That is until I find out that he like the rest has no desire of being more than friends.
He, Scotty has a girlfriend.

I need to stop

This is part of a convo me & my friend were having...

mrsjordanstaal11 (10:31:06 PM): don`t laugh at this, but seriously the only reason I have a smile on my face at work is because of you
shadowff302 (10:31:17 PM): aw haha thanks
shadowff302 (10:31:22 PM): im not that great
mrsjordanstaal11 (10:31:31 PM): yes you are
shadowff302 (10:31:44 PM): no im not why am i
mrsjordanstaal11 (10:32:33 PM): because you`re ryan...I don`t know you just walk make me smile. you always know what to say to make me happy.
shadowff302 (10:32:52 PM): haha aw thanks
shadowff302 (10:32:55 PM): i try

Welcome Home Jordan...

So even though I hate first person I wrote this in first person because I was talking to my friend & this was off the top of my head. It made me used at some point in my Jordan story.

Intro- Jordan had been in Canada visiting family for a week without me.

I was just about to fall alseep too, when he walked in the door. Well lets just say I wasn`t tired anymore. He sat down on the bed & kissed my cheek, because he thought that was I asleep.
"You want your welcome home party tonight or tomorrow?"
He sat there looking confused & I crawled over & straddeled his hips. I kissed him & ran my fingers through his hair then down his back.
Once I got to the bottom of his shirt I broke the kiss just long enough to slide it over his head. Even before it hit the floor he had placed his lips back on mine & had gotten the idea. He ran his hand along my back & slowly slid my shirt up, inch by inch not wanting to take his lips from mine. Finally when all of my stomach was exposed he pulled away but just as quickly as last time his lips were back on mine. I got up from his lap, but still only inches seperated us. I ran my hand along his chest & stomach. Once I made it to his jeans, I quickly undid the button & zipper & a huge smile came to his face. My shorts landed somewhere on the other side of the room, but neither of us cared where the landed. I pushed him so that he laying on the bed & I on top of him. We rolled over so that we was on top & the blue & white flowered bra hung from the bedside lamp. I hadn`t noticed until this point that he was wearing my favorite pair of blue & white plaid boxers & I couldn`t help but smile. But those & my blue bikini underwear made it to the floor. Much later I lay in his arms & he placed a gentle kiss on my cheek before saying, "Baby I love you so much."
"I love you too Jordan, welcome home."

Please tell me what you think, remember that it was off the top of my head when I was talking to my friend. And let me know if it should be put into my Jordan story at some point.